Why!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!

I just read about my classmate, Eljae Lee's Blog.......
I.....I....... thought about my father......... Because, we have many similarities.....

Its been almost 3 years, but I'm still can't let it go.......
I almost cried....... I can't help it........ I just wish that my father was here...... Accompany me, talk to me, punish me, playing PS with me, going out together, having dinner together....... But...... He was gone........ like thin air.

Eljae..... Just want to tell you that you are not alone...... And I understand your feelings.......
If I have a Fairy who would give me only one wish, the first wish i would is to bring back my dad.......

I remembered....... When I was little, I told a lie...... He punished me and I cried..... At that time i hated my dad!! But now , i know i was wrong..... Even the first thing that my father do when he comes back is punish me for a day I WOULDN'T CARE!!!!  Every time when i look at my friends like Boon Tiong, Qi Sheng, Yuw Boon, etc I thought of my father...

When others' father punished him. I remembered how my dad scolded me
When others' father played sports outside with their own son. I remembered my dad playing badminton with me.
When others' father eat dinner together with their family, I remembered of me and my family sit together eating the most delicious food that mom cooked.
When others' father is waiting for them at the school gate when the school is out... I thought of my dad standing there waiting for me at the school gate.... Smiling.....


But now everything changed...... FOR 3 YEARS
I never tasted mom's food for 3 years, because she was busy working.
I never played Street Fighter Alpha 3 with my dad.... I used to remember when he loses to me. We had a lot of fun

I loved my dad. And if someone said something bad about my dad, I swear that the person will never have a nice day...... But i dont have the strength..... like when Yong Shen said something bad about my dad, I never have a chance to fight back.... because I was too weak...... I am just a little boy...... I am just Chen Giap...... I've only smiled back to him and the others but IN MY HEART..... I AM BURSTING WITH FLAMES, they didn't even know that I AM HOLDING MY FIST TIGHT!!!!! If I have a knife I would kill THEM!!!!! ARRRRRGH!!! 


All these years, I've been telling jokes, playing games, reading books..... is just to cover and forgot about the nightmare..... But this nightmare would never ever be gone...... THis is a nightmare for my whole life.....


Nothing is fair in this world........ Nothing ........ Before that day, I thought that the world is very simple....... but after that day and those treats by those useless damned fuckish fools, I knew that the world is filled with unfairness.  Why do the God take my father， not those damned fools??? Why my father!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!

To everyone who read this post, please listen..... Care the peoples beside you WHILE YOU STILL HAVE TIME TO SPEND WITH THEM!!! 

Thanks, Sorry and Bye 


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我刚刚读到我的同学，Eljae李的博客.......
我，我...... ....想起我父亲.........因为，我们有许多相似之处.....

3年了，但我仍然不能忘记.......
我几乎哭了.......我忍不住........我只希望我的父亲在这里......陪我，跟我说话，惩罚我，陪我，一起走出去后，共进晚餐.......不过......他走了........像泡影。

Eljae .....只是想告诉你，你并不孤单......我明白你的感受.......
如果我有一个仙女谁给我只有一个愿望，第一个愿望，就是从神的手里要回我的父亲.......

我记得.......小时候，我说了个谎言......我爸惩罚了我，我哭了.....当时我恨我的父亲！但现在，我知道我错了.....即使他回来第一件事是罚我，骂我，我也不会在乎！！每当我在像皇家长发，祁升Yuw皇家等我，我父亲认为我的朋友看...

当别人的父亲惩罚他。我想起我的父亲怎么骂我
当别人的父亲与自己的儿子打球时。我记得我父亲和我打羽毛球。
当别人的父亲吃与家人共进晚餐，我记得我和我的家人坐在一起吃妈妈煮的美味的食物。
当别人的父亲在放学时学校门口等待他们的孩子时，我想起了我爸爸站在那里等着我....微笑着.....看着我

我爱我的爸爸。如果有人说我爸爸的坏话，我发誓那个人的人永远不会有愉快的一天......但我太弱了.....就像当Yong Shen 说爸爸的坏事时，我从来没有机会反击....因为我太软弱......我只是一个小男孩......我只是狄政业......我只是微笑，但我的 心.....我已经爆了，我的将我的拳头握得致紧!!!!!如果我有一把刀我会杀死他!!!!! 可恶，可恨，欠打！


这些年来，我一直讲笑话，玩游戏，读书.....只是为了掩盖和忘记这恶梦.....但这种恶梦永远不会消失......这是我一生的恶梦.....


这个世界没有什么是公平的，........没有........在此事发生前一天，我认为，世界是很简单.......但在那些无用该死的傻瓜对待我父亲那么放肆时。我才知道，世界是充满了不公平。

为什么上帝把我的父亲带走，而不是那些该死的傻瓜？？？为什么是我的父亲！为什么!!!!!!!!!

阅读这篇文章的人，请听好.....珍惜身边所爱的人。

谢谢，对不起和再见